Life in the Balance ~ Part 2...The Conclusion

I was finally able to breath for a second. I felt for sure the doctor was going to tell me that he had already passed away. He explained that Brad had his leg crushed below the knee but bone smashed to dust and fracturing had caused them to amputate above the knee. Soon thereafter, family and friends began to get there and I was so relieved to see them. A hug, a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold, and most importantly people to pray with. Things were so unclear. I had no idea what to tell people when they wanted answers now and all I could think about was our little girl at home and having to raise her without a Daddy.

That night and several nights after were spent camped out in the emergency waiting room. {With many visitors and phone calls day and night. I still cannot express all the appreciation for the outpouring of love by our Christian family.} When Brad finally woke up and I saw him, he already knew about his leg and he was optimistic, joking around and being his crazy self (I have so many embarrassing stories, more than I ever wanted to have in my life time from these few pain managed days). Nine days passed. Each day only confirming the realization that he was now an amputee and now it was time to go home. I was very nervous about him coming home. What if he falls? What if I can't help him when he is hurting? How am I going to get him in and out of the house, bed, shower!? Do I baby him or make him be as independent as possible? And many more questions plagued me.

Long story short, we made it. It took a long time and thing are not nor will they ever be like they were before. However, I think that because of this experience. Brad and I both grew closer. Closer to one another, closer to God and we found a new appreciation for life.

And with that I will say..... Brad I pray you know how deeply I love you. I definitely know how much you love me. You prove it everyday working so hard even though it hurts.

Happy Valentine's Day to my wonderful husband who I couldn't imagine life without.